The Night the Tears Wouldn’t Stop Falling

The tears showed up tonight – the very same tears that have been threatening to ruin my eye makeup for a very long time.

Remember this post?

When the Tears Won’t Fall

I’m just so overwhelmed by God’s work in my life and by His faithfulness to our family. For those of you who know Brad and I and know our story, you also know that we have faced a multitude of trials over the past several years. Nearly all of those trials were self inflicted; nonetheless, our story is a testament to the awesome power of our God and His endless capacity of mercy and grace.

I can’t help but be completely awed as God continues to place people in our life who show up at our front door or send an email to ask us about the adoption, encourage us and offer their knowledge and resources as we make these initial decisions. Just as we think we’re headed in the right direction, we encounter an unexpected fork in the road and find ourselves back at square one. I’d have to be a robot to not be overcome with emotion…

Our neighbor stopped by tonight, just to chat with Brad and see how things were going with the adoption. He gave us some new information and offered to share his resources. At that exact moment, I opened my email to find three separate messages from friends who offered even more adoption help! Brad came in to tell me about his talk with our neighbor and, before he could get through his first sentence, I started sobbing. If you know me well you know that I just don’t do that. In fact, Brad said he had never seen me go instantly from wide eyed and attentive to head in my hands bawling in all our 17 years together. Could it be possible that God is easing me in to becoming the tender hearted woman He wants for me to be? Amen!

Ezekiel 36:26 “And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart.”


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